Poems

Decision

<Break the body of the one

Who has made us suffer.

Tear their soul slowly apart

So that their life gets tougher

And too difficult and painful

To be able to do harm;

To destroy "the bad which threads us">

That's what's called an angel's charm.

<Release the pitiful beings

Who have caused unhappiness.

Encourage those who gave up

On rules and on blindness

To follow their own free will,

To let themselves controlled

By their feelings and desires.>

That's what the demons unfold.

If I were to choose one side,

To understand and to belong

I wouldn't stay and think at all.

I admit, embrace the wrong;

Because I'm aware of something:

Of the supreme feeling - love.

It is said for centuries

That it comes from up above...

But it's poison. Once inside,

It spreads around and corrupts you.

For you to achieve this feeling,

You will want to break the rules:

To kill for love, to sacrifice,

To cause much suffering and pain,

To be capable to stay

And wait for one in snow and rain.

I need this feeling, live for it;

Life without love is just pointless,

Rather than to be all perfect,

I prefer to create sadness,

So that I'm the one who's happy.

To have remorse's not too wise,

Because in a world of sinners,

Only a sinner can rise.

Angel, free are but a few,

But not for doing what you said...

I decline to be like you

For angels are an evil thread.

Demon, sad creature who tries

To give liberty, set free...

With your help I'm sure I'll rise

For demons are all like me.

Everlasting You

When opening your eye at full moon one
The glass ball cracks, magic is done.
Darkness covers up your body,
The divine wish you’ll learn to study,
Hope for an everlasting You,
Wishing your desires come true.

Flying, walking, swimming and digging
Laughing, smiling, crying and singing
The most sorrowful and intense song,
That you have waited for oh, so long!
It describes the path you’ve chosen:
Having both past and future frozen.

But mortal, you need to know:
The weight You’re carrying drags you low.
So beware of those who find
The hidden key of Your dark mind.
Never believe in what you hear,
The own thoughts try to conceal:
Never let the others worry,
Listening to a never-ending story.

Just continue to pretend
Secretly bending the unbend,
Feeling strength beyond imagination,
A human’s life – Your own creation!
Ruling the world, having Thee powers.
You are the clock which counts the hours!

But no, oh, no! What have you craved for?
Feelingless You is yourself no more.
To realize now! You have no heart!
Now you want to break apart!
To turn Yourself into light ash
And learn to fly without having to mash
Everything within Your sight.
So now, the darkness turns to light.

And of this Everlasting You,
A wondering soul, one sorrow, two,
With all that’s left, engraved in ice,
Just hope for now it would suffice
To rebegin your life again.
This time no birth, no death, no pain.

And to repent the sins You’ve done
You’ll send raindrops at full moon one
On all the mortals who pretend,
Who don’t know their clock hands bend,
Break the awakened spell apart
To let them have again a heart.

あなた自身の目。(anata jishin no me/your own eyes)

Dare to seek your own truths
In someone else's thoughts...

Yume*

Oh sweet, sweet dreams of love and dire.
I saw once a lass of fire.
She had the aura of a God
And her hair was red like blood.
With a beautiful white dress
She looked like a graceful priestess.

Our eyes met, she smiled friendly.
Her rainbow eyes saw through me.
She danced cheerful on her way,
The distance shrinked, she was like a ray.
A ray of sun into my eyes,
I left myself, was in the skies.

“Beautiful one, what is your name?
Are you for real or just a daze?”
“I’m Yume, daughter of the Sun
Would you like with me to come?
Come, and I’ll take you away
To your dream world. Just come and play.”

I’ve never heard such silent voice.
I heard her, but…she made no noise!
I tried to think, had no strength left.
The image that I had was cleft,
Just receiving her persuasive voice.
I went to her. I had no choice.

So we flew and on the way,
She told me what I need to say:
The magic words to set us free.
To take me where I want to be.
Those, as far as I remember,
Were as sweet as cold December:

“We’ve been dancing all the night,
And now I ask You: Give me might!
I wish to go to my own space
Of peace and liberty and grace
In order to achieve perfection,
To modify the world’s reflection.”

I saw a light, an opened gate.
I was so happy, this was fate!
Wished to see, to go up there,
But I couldn’t help but stare.
Tears fell down, her voice vanished
I didn’t want to go, was anguished.

“I still love the world I’m in
Even more than my own dream.”
<Loveable girl, I am so sorry,
It seems that then I’ve made you worry... >

She realized when she looked at me
And in that moment, gainly
She spread her wings and flew away,
So far away…and since that day,
I dream of Yume, little girl
With a white dress, beautiful pearl.

Later on I have found out
That She was a God, (no doubt),
But not just one; She was, it seems,
The God of Never-ending dreams.

*Note: Dream in Japanese is 夢 which is read Yume

honorably mentioned poem at the Literary Competition «Magic Words, Dream Worlds», 03.2011

Pathway to Enlightenment

Have you ever dreamed
Of knowing it all:
Of spreading the fog,
So that the cover would fall?

Close your eyes and watch closely.
What do you see? What do you feel?
It is not darkness, it’s just bleary.
Concentrate and break the seal.

Without knowing the question,
Think of an answer quickly:
Without believing in fortune,
Decide your path sagely.

Your answer is a key
Which can take you to nowhere.
But as long as you’re ready,
Of the truth you’ll be aware.

The answer that you seek
Lies deep inside of you,
But beware: Your body is weak.
It’s a path you can’t undo.

So the absolute enlightenment
Is like a one-time flu.
Make sure you won’t repent
On what you’ve done and what you’ll do.

I’ll tell you what it’s about.
Knowing it all is a dream come true:
You’ll eventually find out,
That the real key is you.

From the moment you were born
You knew it, for all this time.
It’s only that, your soul had sworn
This secret remains mine.

You ask me who I am? I’m you.
You already were aware,
For I am not a dream, it’s true.
I’m just with you in your nightmare.

Once you turn away, wake up.
You have given up enlightenment
And now you live an ordinary life.
Without the light, without excitement.

Shiver of the wind

If I were to count the leaves of a tree,
And I wonder how much would there be,

Would time slow down a little just for me
In order to see them falling so gracefully?

They’re all blown away one by one.
Together they look like a golden ocean.
It seems like they’re having so much fun.
I will pity them by the time they will be done.

By the second blow, they start to fear.
Their color of rust shows them the end is near.
The almost empty tree sheds desperate a tear,
Hoping that the strong wind might disappear.

But the wind blows a third time and it’s deft.
Turning now red, the leaves can see the clef,
Which opens the path to winter and death.
Another shiver of the wind and there´ll be none left.

The fourth time: it’s setting of the sun.
The leaves act like they’re on the run.
They fall like they’ve been shut by a gun.
There color has now changed from red to none.

I witnessed the change which was meant to be.
The time must not stop just for my sake, I agree.
The leaves made it through the journey, without me
Managing to count them. Time passes blindly.

The Answer

The Ending

Deep inside the blue, blue ocean

I could see a pitch black cave

With no life around, no motion,

I felt captured, like a slave.

The attraction was so strong...

Such absurd silence - it felt wrong.

I went with them, or so it seemed

As my eyes closed I thought it screamed.

My left arm, it craved for slaughter,

Called a sign above the water,

With a sharp-formed, abnormal shape

And so I managed to escape.

I saw on my way outside

More people passing by my side.

They were familiar, well-known,

But their eyes were made of stone.

They were all heading backwards

In the vast and dark blue charts

Of humanity and hope

While I was climbing the steep slope.

When I got out, walked on the shore,

I saw there were beings no more.

"Oh, dear God, where have I been

When all that´s good could still be seen?"

I just couldn´t find my clock

And my vision of tomorrow.

It will always be a shock-

The black cave all filled with sorrow.

Light

The white room is engulfed by sunlight.

Other than a window I cannot see.

That in such brightness can emerge fright

I never knew. Now I can't turn my sight.

What I see in the now yellow glass

Is a demonic, shallow appearance

Who laughs. Black-haired, with red eyes, a lass

Smiles evilly, by itself in a class.

And how I wish that she could be free.

She would unleash her powers, cease the time-

But no. She´s trapped for eternity...

The light dissolves. I see now clear - she´s me.

The white room is darker than the night

Other than that mirror I cannot see.

That in such darkness exists a light

I always knew. I´ll someday have to fight.

The sunlight waits for the mirror to flash.

Darkness awaits light´s arrival.

She waits for the glass to smash.

I await her...

Resurrection

What sweet scent has rose upon me!

It´s a freedom of my own.

And I can shout again to thee

All the foe´s content, that´s grown.

Let my arms enfold thy spirit

Through the smothering red night.

The twisted awakening broke it-

World´s existence all so bright.

I pledge for the memorial´s only hope

While thy tears fall in the fire

Of oblivion. I ask thee to cope

With the sane acts of my dire.

Just a few more moments left

And I shall finally break free

And I´ll aim to teach thouself

All the brief times of history.

Deliberate illusion

I dream to see an ideal world

With silver hearts and souls of gold

My name written on a flower

In the passing of each hour.

A space where I could observe

The other´s future, well preserved.

I did not ask for harmony

Between all the beings on Earth,

Not the happiness of many,
Nor dispelling of all curse.

I want everything to count-

Mind and spirit to be bound,

Destiny, fortune and faith

Presence of angel and wraith,

Powerful beings who want to share

Their secrets and skills so rare.

I do not ask for harmony

Between all the beings on Earth,

Not the happiness of many,
Nor dispelling of all curse.

I have all that´s left of hope.

My pride, my image, they all cope

With the disasters which remained

In my piece of life, that´s chained,

Of misery, material

Makes it seem all too surreal.

But I will not ask for harmony

Between all the beings on Earth,

Not the happiness of many,
Nor dispelling of all curse.

I release now all my visions

For I´m counting on illusions.

What I dream - my fantasy -

I create. As for reality,

I wouldn´t want to make one change

I´d let it all as fake and strange.

Haunted

Moon of the past

Found me at last

All of my memories of ye awoke...

Spinning around

Myself, I'm bound

I keep sensing thou presence and I choke...

Following me

I try to break free

But all the strings of hope I had now broke...

Ye can rise, feel freedom and power,

But who is the one, who flies up to the highest mountain?

Ye finds out secrets at a lonely hour,

But who is the one, who communicates with nature?

Ye discovers ideas sharp as an arrow,

But who is the one, who lives in the deep blue seas?

Ye understands all their sadness and sorrow,

But who Is the one, who hears the thoughts of beings?

Ye can see the blue veil tonight,

But who is the one, who hears the call of night?

The answer is clear and within everybody’s heart.

Ye will just have to scan thou self; each and every part.

Pathway to Enlightenment

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Resurrection